Do You Think My Insurance Covers the Cost of Chill Pills?

I'm so tired from getting up early to get my project started for my senior seminar.  It's not due for a few weeks but I really need to hash it out if I'm going to avoid my far too typical behavior of putting things off until the very last moment.  I'm sooo sleepy but hopefully my delicious coconut macaroon tea will kick in soon!  =)

I've started to realize something.  Well, I guess I've always noticed it but its the first time its really hit me hard how much of a problem it is.  I'm way too uptight.  I'm too stressed about anything and nothing.  Any little thing will set me off.  I really need to work on this.  I'm hurting one of the most important people in my life as a result.  I'm trying way to hard to be certain with everything before I invest.  Maybe I need to just take a chance, for once, and see what everything will turn out okay.  I'm sure all parties involved would be pleased with me.  ^_^

Okay.  I'm going to go watch an internet review, slurp down a few more enormous swigs of my tea, and then return to research land before my class tonight!  Wish me luck!

Da-da-of-the-blah-blah!

I'm just in a mood to smash my finger in an organized fashion across the key board (not to mention I'm killing time while a devil of a document takes it's time to load). My schedule is getting fuller to the point that it may possible burst, or I will bust, I guess it will be which happens first. I will find a way to juggle it all, there is no other option.

"Sigh"

it's hard to not get too personal on this blog. A natural pull towards superstition mixed with a reality based fear of stalkers leads me to think that typing anything too personal might be borderline dangerous.

I miss the stage

I miss typing.

I actually missed learning.

See me in two weeks when I eat those words.

Thunder

The storm is finally passing, but it was previously a tangle of fast rain and loud thunder. The sheets of bright lighting slid through the slits in my bedroom shades, lighting up my blackened room. All the while he sleeps, tired from water and work and worry. I sleep beside him, hungry for rest that week has made my body crave. I can only sleep so long in this weather, feeling like one of us must be awake to stand guard from the monster of a storm. The beast has finally calmed itself, moving far off enough so the flashes only serve a faint reminder of its fury and the thunder dulled to a distant purr. He breathes steadily. His hand lightly cupping the ball of my foot as I am on the couch and he is sprawled on the floor so that his long limbs can spread wide. A soft breathe in, a light huff out. The work of his lungs assures me that there can be peace, even in the middle of all this action. The world outside my windows is calming, he is calm, my uneasy heart is slowing. My fingers typing is the loudest of noises now. I stop so that I will not disrupt the ease of the world with my fast and clunky fingers. The world seems right again. I am less afraid now.

vent vent vent

my life has become consumed with my new job and it's dragging me down.... but I will get through it. It isn't that the job is terrible....it's is just a lot more stress than I am used to dealing with. i have to learn to control my emotions. they are starting to eat at me like many tiny, nashing teeth. I could easily swat them away but instead i choose to let them bit past the skin. i have to get a grip. i have to find a way to be okay with my situation with however long it intends on last. i am going to be okay. i am going to get through it. and i should be better than whining and pouting. this loathsome stage ends now. it has to or it risks hurting everything that is keeping me together. tomorrow is ovo. i will be happy. i am happy

amen

"sigh"

Not a bad day today.....



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Just not a good one either.

=(

Almost There!

I can see the end in sight and it looks so glorious! I just have to maintain my focus (which is slipping) for a few more days and then I can enjoy the freedom of not having to do homework since last August! I cannot wait!

Also, I have a writing project that officially starts tomorrow! This should be fun! Not to mention I'm hoping to write something paragraphs or substance, and not just my daily babbles, very soon! Until than we will all have to bear the load a little longer!

According to the comment keeper-tracker-thingy someone somewhere is looking at this blog. Mercy I hope it's not anything or anyone creepy or evil. I guess that doesn't matter but I have no idea because no one leaves comments! I might be being (<--does that work) read by ghosts!

Okay, my hands are warmed up. Time to crank out the last half of this stupid final project!!!!

ANNNNNNNNDDDD GO!

Toddles! <3

Snap....

There was a very angry rant here.

But I thought twice and erased it.

I don't exactly feel better, but I know I feel better than if I were to send all of that bad energy out.

You win this round enlightenment.