In Need of a Muse

First off, according to this stat business that this site offers, someone is viewing my blog! I don't really write with the intention that someone will be reading this, but I can't help but get excited when I see that little stat icon bloom with numbers! Now if only comments were left in the wake of views! This was my blog for a writing class in school about 2-3 years ago and now I've come back to it in the hope that something decent will leak out my hands and onto my keyboard. I haven't been able to write more than a few short stories the last couple of years, mostly out of some confused fear of writing. I don't know why I am afraid to write, but I am trying to use this as a way to get back into the swing of it all!

So I have decided I need a muse! I need a topic I feel passionate about to write on! I love movies, so I could do movie reviews, but I feel like I need some sort of hook besides writing about any old movie. The same with books and video games. I want to practice maintaining my focus by choosing a topic and writing on it almost everyday. I need the disipline if I am ever going to get back seriously into writing.

I love writing more than anything but I know that I am not making it a main focus in my life, school and social things have been taking that spot. I wish I could make writing a career or at least a dedicated hobby. I want to find a focus, a topic, and just just go for it! The problem is that my brain has been stuck. I don't want to just write about myself. That leaves too much room to be wishy-washy. I want to find something that requires focus and knowledge. It's kind of like "Julie and Julia" when she wrote about cooking everyday, I need something like that to discipline me! Until then I guess I will just babble. At least I'm keeping my lazy fingers moving.

I don't want to stop writing, but I don't want to babble either (this is why I need a muse!) I'm listening to "Televators" by The Mars Volta. I've never heard a song that was so close to a religious experience (well except Dark side of the Moon, which I listened to for the first time yesterday!).

And now my Dad burnt lemonade so the house is filled with smoke....don't ask.

So if I am actually talking to someone, leave a comment. I want to know your thoughts! Maybe if you have a suggestion on what to write about, you could comment on that too!

Toddles!