What can I say about the odd turns of the cogs in life? Well, first off I can point out how the damn things like to spontaneously change direction whenever they please. I also would like to make note of the fact that despite how cruel they can be, they also can also be generous.
Life has changed for me. I feel, better in a lot of way. Instead of being stuck in the gears of self-pity I have a sense of direction, like everything is finally coming together and, despite my doubts, everything does happen for a reason. All of that pain, self-doubt, arching fear, and self-loathing I finally feel like I deserve more, the first of that being a decent amount of self-respect. There's a lot of self-words going on today. That isn't normally a trend for me, I swear. I have a major, I have a path, I have someone who cares about me. I have all the things I thought a little more than a year ago that I thought I would never find.
I was so empty. Now I'm filling up. I'm a cup, a fat, tea cup that was collecting dust on the shelf. Now I'm am hosting sweet, flavorful tea that smells of familiar cinnamon and hazel. I hope someday to fill myself with more exotic spices like chia and such, but I will be patient for that. It seems that such patience has gotten me far, so I will keep that faith and persistence up. There can't be faith alone. There has to be motivation and strife. I am working towards the goals that I want. That is the best thing I can do
Love will keep us moving, it has kept me moving.
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