Like Clockwork

Every time I feel adjusted and okay with myself, it happens. Every time I think I'm happy it all comes back. I just...am at a loss. I will not let this confuse me, I will not let this cause me to sway. I just wish that things weren't so one sided. I wish that I could make selfish requests. I'm never granted that luxury. I want to make things fair...but I can't without being cruel. I can only choose to bow my head and keep going. I need to move forward. I need to keep running, and I will.